i LOVE the lecturer ^^

well, i was in my innovation class yesterday (24/3/2010)..the lecturer, part time lecturer i guess.. i like her much.. not because she oways tok funny or wad.. jz because she knw US...




As a child :
--> we oways dun like parents compare us between others. 
--> we oways hate parents decided our education and anythg we dun like.
--> we like to do or study wad we want.
--> we hope to be praised by parents .




My lecturer, she know us well. As she said, she NEVER FORCE her children. She NEVER COMPARES her children. she knows our feeling. she know us. yeahh... she knowss.. hahass.
when i heard that, i was touched.. yeahh.. Parents... They doesnt know wad i want. They always decided for me. Force me to do anythg i hate i dislike. If my parents will think like her, i guess i am happy with my study. And i can get well in my any results. But, unlucky, they dont !! 


They dun k wad i feel. They doesnt know and never want to hear me. They just told me ' U study those subjects are for ur own good.. Ur future.. " LOLs~~~ my own good ??? why i never feel dat... 


If i can choose wad i wan to study in my high school.. NOW, i'm not in MALAYSIA !! i was at the other side of the EARTH !!! BUT !!! U destitute my right to choose wad i want !! U make my life become such useless !!


U !!! when i knw ur feeling after knowing my results.. i felt DAMN HAPPY.. when i saw ur eyes and mood FULL of REGRET.. U make it.. u should thanks urself right ?? u did it all... u make all relatives blame me.. u make me more and more hate u.. yeah,, u are.. u done it .. izzit now u feel happy with it ? LOLs.. i hope so..~~


Until i start my university life,.. i was panic.. why u want me to study accounting ? And why u stopped me study account stream when i was in high school ? Are there any problems with you ? Huh ??? Can u answer it for me ? Sigh.. 


I hate u. I hate u oways compare me between others. Every child are unique. My lecturer said dat. Why cant u just do a parents like her ?? You are lucky you know.. Your children are not cripple.. Your children have fully sound mind... You should praise and contentment what u have.. Not blame this and that..


So.. just stop it.. Let your children decide wad they reli want. They are not longer a small girl.. They cant rely you anymore.. they need to make choices for their own.. Just release your hands.. Let them do wad they want. Even how hard.. At least, they tried.. 


Mum and Dad.. I know i'm still young for u both.. But, i have my OWN ways.. i want to choose wad i want.. I am a Big Girl. Not a Baby Girl. You not to worry so much.. I can make my own choices . I can do it well.. :D


That's ya all.. Love u both much.. Muackss.. <3<3<3

even i just 19 y/o

but i knw wad i'm doing

so 

dont worry

be happy